After a fairly recent hurt from a friend, and my inadvertent modus operandi of not letting people in, I realized I still have trust issues! Have I not worked through this already? I spend my days giving energy, receiving and delivering healing intuitive messages, teaching breath work and opening up deep tissues through yoga… healing others and healing myself in the process. But there was more work to be done. So I went to the root cause. In 1985, the first terrorist attack known to me, the Air India bombing took the lives of my cousin and my aunt, when their plane exploded off the coast of Ireland, killing 329 people instantly. I considered them to be a little brother and 2nd mother. I was 11 years old. I was devastated.
For many years I had visions of physically strangling and killing the person responsible for the bombing (we will say it is one person, ‘he’, for the sake of this story). Though the tiny image of me as an 11 year old girl hurting anyone is laughable, I truly believed I could and would.
I wanted and needed to move on. I went into meditation with the intention to forgive him, without knowing how. Then it hit me… he is me, I AM him. We ARE all one. In his life, he must have been hurt SO badly and been SO afraid that he thought this was the right thing to do. There was no love left in him, only fear. A fear so great, that led him to this type of destruction. The only difference between him and me, is that I did not act on my thoughts.
As I meditated, I called in the energy and brought in this man’s energy, and I showered him with love. I surrounded him with love. I forgave him for his actions. I went into Oneness and showered him with universal unconditional love.
Here is an excerpt from my journal, March 24, 2017:
I truly and honestly forgive him for causing the Air India bombing.
Now, I am free!
I will trust again and again, fully and deeply. If I get hurt, I will learn and grow and I will continue to trust and love even MORE deeply!
I forgave him, fully and completely, for ME. Now I am free to return to our original divine state of love. We are all one. We are all love. That is the power of forgiveness.
I hope this brings you healing and encourages you to forgive, for you, so you can move more freely through this life!
In loving service,